frusrating times of pain and loss

Howyas firstly a bit apology for not posting anything uo of late. I am going thru sum what a difficult time of having to deal with a painful beverment of loosing my dear mum gemma and i have been trying to write her own piece but anytime i try it gets hard and frustrating as well.

So anyhow enough about about my own personal life. So this is whats been happening. I have been going thru sum changes and doing a lot of soul searching. I think though when one has to do soul searching it gets frustrating confusing and your always left questioning yourself about everything. Now sadly in recent times recent times being in the last few months i have become harsh and at times hard to get along with. I have been snappy irritable angry as anything and well at times my mood has been up and down more times than a lift. But here is the deal i have lost my mum suddenly and well you know im coming to grips with not having her here. Now dont get my wrong all my family and friends have been there for me and even my friends abroad have taken the time out of their busy work schedules and have put up with my highs and lows. Now im internally grateful for this and more. But i have to tell you lovely lasses and laddies this. Looks around you dont get a life book that tells you how to deal with grief. Ahh sure you get a book of birth marriages relationships even training you dog but sadly there are is no ohh hey how do you deal with your parent dying book.

Now i have been litterly keeping it together by working on other sideline projects and well spending an unhealthy amount of time on facebook but its a mere distraction in a way. Facebook is a great website to connect with friends and they also help you in dealing with your crisises and emotions. But sometimes in my case it pays to have a good network of friends that you can text tweet call at certain hours of the day and night.

I do think though that i am getting thru things ok but i do have good days and bad days you know after all i am human and i do have emotions and im not afraid to show them. Its just sad in a way when certain members of society dont know how to deal with them at all. I mean i will give you a laugh here i think a few months when i was getting ready for mums funeral. There was a knock on the door and there was a upc guy trying to sell me services. That was i completey wept and cried right in front of him. now to make things worse the guy couldnt comfort me with words or anything he just jumped over the gates and legged it. It was than i thought ohh ok you could have dealt with that problem mr upc guy a bit better. Now sadly i met a dear friend of mine ages back who lost both her mum and dad and she even said in a dry way society has lost its heart especially irish society.

But in a way i have to ask myself in this piece where exactly did it happen as irish people did we loose caring sides. I mean ok folks there is a shite lot of bad stuff going on but where is the compassion gone hey? It cant be just tucked away in the back of our minds and only taken out in times of having a few drinks and crying over being dumped. No i refuse to believe that as a nation of so called caring compassionate people we dont care any more and we cant show compassion to our fellow human being.

I mean i know in my life i have been thru a lot and still have a lot to go thru as well. But you see i do still care a lot about my mum my dad my music career my writing career my gorgeous son and everything else that means the world to me. I guess sadly we have lost our caring side and in a way it kind of sucks you know. But it doesnt not stop me in caring for those who mean the world to me and also i dont stop caring about my rights issues and my music you know. in a way i just hope well one day we do finally open ourselves up and find that caring  side back and soon.

But i also think in being venarable there is nothing wrong with showing a weak side or even showing emotions you know. You know i think in every day life we all show emtions and we are passionate about stuff. its what makes us who we are and more. I guess sadly sum people i know of late just cant really show their emtions and show empathy to a person that may be going thru a hard time you know.

Album review Thomas Janak Rainbow Bridge

In recent times i have been looking around for good artists and bands to review. Now i have been given a few cds of late and i am trying to pick and choose my reviews and of course choosing the time and place to to them as well. But of late i have been listening to a great cd called rainbow bridge. Now this album was written by a really awesome friend of mine called thomas janak i should also say that he is  also a vegan and he does a radio show called wildtime which can be found on his facebook page thomas janak. Now i got the great pleasure of meeting thomas this time last year when he was in a 2 piece band called final composition but thomas has now decided to do his own solo material and he has been doing such great and wonderful music for many years now.

Now to describe rainbow bridge you could use many words. i feel that the album has such a great blissed out chillout vibe going along thruout the entire album and thomas’s soothing voice makes the album well worth of a listen. The peoning track im here to stay has the making of good and enjoyable music to listen to. his soothing voice and awesome lyrics make you feel relaxed and happy. its the kind of music i would listen to if i want to just relax and unwind. I ove the eletrocina beat that goes along certain songs in the album and they also remind me of yazoo and depech mode at times.

The new tune that i really enjoyed listening to was dont chase the dragon. It was such a clam and easy song to listen to and it actually reminded me of the beloved blissed out 1990s tune the sun is rising. I have to say it was one of my personal favourites on the cd and i felt that the song within itself brought an sense of calm into my busy life.

The next tune that i really enjoyed was i understand. It remi nd me of the 90s dance song by grace its not over yet. I loved how there was a hint of eletronica that runned throut the whole album and i also loved how there were hints of old school german stylings music that remind me of kraft work. I think that if you want some blissout beats and awesome music to listen to whether it being in the car or even having down time to yourself i would highly recommand getting rainbow bridge.

I would just also like to say that this ablum in a whole has even helped me get through a perosnal trauma in my life. since the beverment of my late mum gemma rogers. This soothing album has eased me and comforted me at the best of times and if and when you buy the cd you will get an inlay card describing how thomas got the name of the album and when you get the cd make sure to check out the photography work in the cd case as there is such as gorgeous picture of thomas hanging out with his gorgeous furbaby son charlie his beautiful and gorgeous white german shepherd dog.

I think if any1 want to add electrocia and blissout beats and soothing music to either their ipod or mp3 player thomas janaks rainbow bridge is one cd i would highly recommand.

Should you also wish to purchase this awesome cd please check out facebook.com/thomas janak and follow his links to order his awesome cd.

jingle bells rocks review

Due to current circumstances beyond my control this blog piece is late due to a beverment of a close family member that passed away a few months ago. So please bear with me i was going thru a difficult time and im only after getting around to writing it now.

 

A few months back i was invited to the jingle bells rock gig at the ruby rooms @ katie gallaghers in bray co wicklow. The gig was a fundraising gig to raise funds for the semora youth cafe that is based in bray co wicklow.  So to say the least it had an impressive lineup of singers and bands performing on the stages that night. I have to say that the venue was nice and beautifully laid out with a nice christmassy feeling to it.

The first band to open the night was the awesome punk rock band pimps and gimps. the pimps and gimps are a local bray n=band that consist of the following members Rob punx Stephen ‘Sully’ O’Sullivan – Guitar / vocals Brian ‘Trip’ Horan - Bassand Patryck graczic - Lead guitar. I have to say that the guys should is a punk rock element for todays upcoming punk rockers with an essence of old school rock and punk that reminds of the classic punk groups that we all use to listen to back in the day. Sully and his group get the crowd agoing and rocking out to all their songs. A personal favourite song of mine is lets go radio which is to me a new age classic punk with awesome guiter riffs and a banging beat of drums. The guys who i know personally are such a great bunch of lads and i would highly recommand that every1 checks them out. granted be it may you may go slight deaf from their gigs but anyways having good hearing is always over rated hee hee hee. The amazing energy of the pimps and gimps can be seen on stage and give such awesome live shows and you can see how the band work together to make such awesome riffs and truely awesome tunes. As a punk rocking chick who loves all things punk whether it being the fashion the ink or even the music scene the gimps are one to check out and they always have the makings of a great night out when you see them perform. Whether if they play down the harbour or even in the city if you like your punk music raw hard and really really loud do yourself a huge massive favour and check these boyos out. their music is available to check out and share on facebook. just type in pimps and gimps and like their page i promise all you punk rockers you will not be disapointed in any way shape or form.  please click on the below link to listen the pimps and gimps perform their own original material 19 which was filmed in sweeneys.

http://youtu.be/_6XzW0dKWfg

 

 

Pimps and Gimps doing what they do best rocking out the joint

 

The next performer that was performing that night was the semoras very own jade shannon mccann. Jade is a young performer singer song writer that usually performs down at the local hot spot that is the harbour bar but she decided for that night she would give her vocal talents for the night of the jingle bell rocks gig. Her beautiful and awesome performance of christina perrys jar of hearts song was without a shadow of a doubt a truely amazing performance. her voice is remarkable and so beautiful as well. Now i have heard a few other songs that jade has done and hits lovely and talented lady has even wrote a few of her own songs which makes her a truely talented and awesome lady to boot as well. Shes also one of the most down to earth performers i got the great pleasure of listening to and i do see big things happening for this lovely lady. I think if any1 wants a great night of good music i would check out jade shannon mccann. Make sure to check out her own original material on her facebook page. I have in recent times have listened to the hauntly beautiful mixed emotions i think any1 who likes listening to great female singer song writers like laura marling sia and lisa hanigan would enjoy jades music style and her truely remarkable voice.

The lovely jade shannon mccann performing jar of hearts

The next band to high light and make the night amazing was our very own flyin ashtrays. this awesome 5 piece group consist of lead vocals kris finnerty-Lee Taylor-Lead Guitar Vocals /Guitar  Craig Healy, Drums – Anto Gunning, and on bass dave meehan. The flyin ashtrays sound is to say the least awesome and loud with a subtle hint of old school rock grunge and some classic rock stylings from such greats like the doors kings of leons red hot chilli peppers but to name a few. Now in recent times the band has decided to work on a fresh sound and with both kris finnerty and lee taylor doing the vocals they have the makings of an awesome band to come out bray in recent times of late. They got the crowd going and getting on their feet and dancing along to their songs that night at the jingle bells rock gig and to say the least it had the makings of an awesome night and you also could not meet a nicer bunch of lads as well. I would have to say my favourite song of theirs is down hill such a great song with a rock edge and an alternative twist to boot as well. If do see big things happening for these guys in 2012 and for those of you who love your rock and alternative edgy music these lads are one to look out for.  I think if your ever in need of a good night out make sure to be at one of the flyin ashtray gigs i can assure you you will not be disappointed at all.

The flyin ashtrays

Ohhh another act that i saw perform that night was the awesome was the lovely Caoimhe Duane. Caoimhe Is a professional singer who also does work the the great macfleetwood band who are a truely awesome fleetwood mac tribute band. Her music stylings were to say the least made for an awesome night of great music. she did an unplugged version of a few classic hits and when i heard cyndi laupers true colours it was truely amazing and it also goes to show ya that you dont need a big band to back you up when you just have an acostic guiter and powerful voice to entertain every1. I have to say that caoimhes vocie was truely remarkable and amazing and if any1 needs to check out her music and even her bands music please go onto her facebook page and that is where you will find her awesome and powerful voice and truely awesome dress style as well.

 Caoimhe Duane performing her music at the jingle bells rock gig

The last but not to say the least band that was performing that night was the awesome run for cover. As the name would say run cover are a Simon Growney – Ross Sheridan – Guitars, Dylan Nolan – Bass, Michael Fenton – Drums,. Now these guys know how to rock the joint out with great classic covers from the likes of old bands and new. I love their edgy rock sound and they also know how to get the crowd going and their stylings of 7 nation army by the white stripes got the whole joint litterly rocking out and with their cool style they are sure to keep every1 rocking and paryting thruout the night in where ever they play their inpending gigs.

Run for cover 

Now i would also like to say that all acts that have been done up in this piece are truely anazing and well worthy of your time so please do yourselfs all a favour and make sure to check out all these awesome acts and bands. Also many many thanks to every1 who took the time out to help me with not only this piece but also thanks for the time and patience in my recent sad time of loss.

my own point of view on animal rights issues

warning the following video is pretty graphic and has scenes of animal abuse viewer discretion is advised and not at all suitable for those who are easily offended.

http://youtu.be/VTZQnQeAPJc

I am firstly so sorry i havent been in touch. I am going thru the tough time of finding sumthing to write on. I mean i could write complete nonsense and i could either wear my heart on my sleeve and write what i truely believe in. So after much pondering and quite a lot of late nights spend note scribbling i have decided to write on a subject that i truely believe and also this subject can be at times quite  a Controversial topic. So i shall start with this piece and i do hope that i either dont get lynched by the mob but anyways if i was thought anything in this life is stick to what you belief in and you will go far in life.

So i have deicded to do a piece on animal rights and also what it means to me. Now after a lot of support from a  lot of my vegan and non vegan friends i will go ahead with this post.

Now where to start on being a vegan. Well i do have to start somewhere. So when i was younger i became a vegetarian for the simple reason was that i was against cruelity to animals and i also though that eatting meat was wrong. Although i was raised ona  diet of meat it was only when i was a teenager that i decided that i wanted to become a vegetarian. now the whole change over from eatting meat for the best part f her life to not eatting meat was simple enough for me. I decided that i could not imagine eatting anymore meat for the simple reason was because it was cruel and also i think of anything i did not want to add the the torture or pain that animals suffer in the factory and meat farms. I also felt that i was doing my bit for the enivorment and it was also better for my health and life style.

I will sadly admit that i did not follow thru with my promise of not eating meat and i did slip up once or twice.  But thru dedication and my own hard work. I have since remained meat for for a long time now. Now i have to say there is now a lot of alternatives now avaibale on the market for the vegetarian. Such as quorn products and tofu and for those of you who dont know what tofu is tofu is a soya based product that is avaible to buy and you can prepare a lot of nice meals with it.

But over the last while i have deicded to become a vegan. being a vegan was a simple change and chocie for me to make and take on. It was a challenge to give up dairy and animal products. I have to say the change over was simple for me and there was a lot of support offered to me on becoming a vegan thanks to my animal rights and vegan friends on the social networking site that is facebook. i think of anything there is now a lot of vegan supplaments that now can be purchased in many health stores. I think if anything the change over for me was quite simple.

Now with me becoming a vegan ther was a downside to it. Does everything that you really feel passionate for always seem to have a down side. sadly mine has come to negetaive comments make to me over my vegan and animal rights lifestyle. You see i always try to high light the issue of animal cruelity on  daily basis on facebook but sometimes people will not take me seriosuly at all. The usual questions i get from some people are mainly like right ok your a vegan where do you get your vitamins from. ohh right so if your a vegan what do you wear and why do you find such acts cruel on animals and here are my answers. Being a vegan i get my vitamins from my local health store. i also have a good diet of vegetables carbs proteins and yeah i also drink and eat a lot of soya products and i also enjoy eating tofu and mock duck products. My second answer to thw what do you wear products well simple again i dont wear animal products such as fur or leather or any other products that may have hurt animals in the process of the items getting made. Yes certain industrys such as the meat and also clothing industry and lets not forget the animal entertainment industry. you see with these industrys the people who work in them are incredically cruel to our animal friends. 

I think if anything if you did think to yourself right ok how are these industrys cruel to animals well i tell you what there is no such thing as cruelity free painless things that curel people do to animals. I mean when you think about it for example im ttattly against the fur and leather trade. i mean who thinks that its actaully right to litterly skin an animal alive and throw it aside all for what for fashion. yeah i think not. i mean i have seen plenty of videos on various animal rights websites and to hear an animal scream in the process of of getting skinned will actaully scare you half to death and at times make you cry and make you think seriosuly why do people do this for.

So when i read all about this horriable abuse that is done to animals i deicded enough was enough and thats when one day i deicded to take a stand and give our animal friends a voice. i have since joined a lot of pages on facebook and i have also decided to well give my own thoughts on the matter of animal abuse. so far been so supportive and have also in sum ways have defined in in saying ohh animals are such wuses and they dont feel pain. but i have to say in my own spin of things i have told many people my own reasons on why i dont support many many animal events that may hurt or ahrm the animal in any way. so i deicded to never go to the dog racing. I dont acatully like horse racing i dont like circues and also i really hate animal testing.

From my own point of view here where do we get or hope to achieve in such cruel tests to animals, I mean when you think about it animals and humans dont actaully have the same dna and yet countless experemients are being done on animals on shockly daily basis. I mean when you think about it how would you like pure pexiode poured into your eyes or even get certain objects shoved up in any opening of your body. now just imagine this is being done to you and you have no say in this. you can say no or scream or even bite back. well sadly people do this to animals and it really does break my heart.

But if you want to stop this you can. You can make the choice to not eat meat products. you can make the choice to not buy cruelity free products of any kind tthat are now avaiable on the market. You can also make a difference by not buying such products that may support animal cruelity cases. You can do this by doing research on how to buy such cruelity free products that are readliy avaibale to purchase and buy online now. But i think if anything the school both here in ireland and abraod should really bring a module on being nice to animals and not being cruel to them. i think if anything i was raised to never ever lift my hand to my own pets and if anything if this module was brought into our schools this could really lower the cases of animal abuse by half.

now again i feel so strongly on my animal rights views there is no right or wrong ways or views on who i feel. I think if anything animal rights issues are massively important to me and also its really about saving lives as well. FYI when i deicded to become an animal rights activist and also with my own choice on supporting such animal charities. I just want to make one thing clear. I would never ever hurt any1 in the process of saving animals and i will always try to raise the awareness of animals rights and issues. I just wanted to say that because some heartless idiot said there ages back that i should be well locked.. Now for the person who had said that to me i really had to get rid of. So many thanks again for reading this blog and also if you feel strongly about this issue well than come on forth and let the debating start.

you think the circus is fun think again. being locked up and beaten senseless for what performing tricks for idiot humans think again

 

Drifting along or drifting apart?

 

 

im not sad that we dont speak im just sad you dont make the effort anymore

 

So for the last while i have been going thru recent changes in myself. I mean i know i said ages back that i might be going back to school. I also know that i said that i would be doing certain things in my life such as travelling or maybe even going on holidays abroad. But alas i have put a few plans on the back burner for a while. Mainly due to the fact that i have well other commitments in my life and well money has been tight of late. I mean who knew that you would need such things as a job money and even a few other things in order go get my plans up and running. I kid i kid of course i knew all this i mean that i would need funds in order to fufil my dreams and well they will happen all in a good time.

BUt sadly what i have noticed of late is that i have been drifting apart for a lot of my friends. I just remember this hit me last night. I was talking to my best friend in sydney and we were talking about gigs he went to and also up and coming tatts that we both might be getting. So as he went off to get his coffee. I checked out gigs that will be happening in the summer. Now im going to well plan to go to oxygen and electric picnic this year. I mean i was already offered tickets for the weezer gig and lord only knows im a massive weezer fan. So i happily clicked on the electric picnic webpage and i was very impressed to hear my favourite candadian cool kids arcade fire playing this year. So being all excited and simply bursting at the seems i texted every1. Come on who is with me for going to electric picnic we can all make a weekend of it and tickets are at good prices so comeon is with me on this. Now i did not hear naything yet and i took it into note that it was late last night and well every1 might be asleep. But nothing prepared for what news i got next. I got one text saying ohh thats like ages away and we will see. I was pretty dismayed and pissed at the same time. The last time i was this excited by anything was when simon fagan came to town and i got to meet him. Than it just hit me. I have out grown my friends.

Now i didnt cry i just thought ohh it looks like i have out grown every1. Now its kind of sad really now that i think about this. It also sent me spinning to my friend in sydney. Jeeze i hope your not going to dump me next. BUts sad when you realise sumthing like this. I have been friends with these people for years i went to school with them. I even catered for their nights at the pubs and night clubs i worked in and i even helped them wet the babies head. But apartily i ask my friends for too much of late. Now to say the least i would say that the friends that i have made in recent times that i have made on social networking sites are more like genuine friends to me than the so called friends that i did have. I mean if anything all it takes if a poke a quick hi and event a comment on a link or photo or song that they might have put up on their page. Now thankfully my mate in sydney was extremely kind enough to let me spin and than help me put with this situtaion and for that i would be lost without him. But seriously as for my so called friends well sadly it looks like its good from me. Do you know what i dont even feel sad when i think about it let alone say it. I have always been a self relant little ragamuffin 1 2 i dont acatully relate to my so called friends anymore and 3 well my friends on my social network site have been so awesome to me of late. They have also been there for me thru the thick and thin of it and also have made ma laugh out loud so many times im actaully surprised that i can stand up staright from the amount pf laughter that these people give me on a daily basis.

Now i do know that certain people have went thru certain changes such as having children moving abroad or even well other every day life. So to those people who have let me down. well its been swell but i really think that it might be my time to move on and well do my own thing. Now where is my tattoo artist friends and folk musican friends and fellow bloggers when i need them. 

Watch this space

the 1 who got away

 

 

 

 

So i have to say i have been going thru a some what interesting change in my life. I mean like nothing has happened of late work wise. But sumthing very interesting happen there at the weekend there. I was happily walking around my town with my vegan latte when i heard a familier voice say hello to me. It was a ghost from my past and to say the least i havent spoken to this ghost in a really long time. Now when it comes to my exes i sumwhat will admit i dont have the best case history when it comes to ex BFs. But i think if anything i would always try and stay friends with my exes. I mean im friends with 2 of my ex BFs on a social networking site and yes at times we do talk laugh share links and also check in to see how the other one is doing.

But i think with this ex well it was sumwhat surprising seeing him. So we went for a drink spoke for ages and exchanged blow by blow accounts of what is happening in our lives. What kind of made it sad when i told him about my own issues and about what has happened in my life. Now i cant really say much about whats happened to me but all i will say is my health kind of sucks of late. So when i told him all this. It hit him hit him really hard. Jesus you have been thru the wars havent you he said. Well you could say that yeah and also ahh im ok at times tis hard though to not well get thru the day without being upset.  So when i said that he just fell apart and said he lost sumthing in me.

When i heard this i actaully felt nothing i mean i treat life like the luck of the draw and im not saying this in a bad way but im kind of glad that we did end when we did. I mean i was in one of those relationships in where everything went wrong. we fough we made up we laughed til our sides hurt and well cried. but towards the end we kept fighting and we were not going anywhere. I will admit this im not sad about it at all. In actaul fact im kind of relieved if anything.

But if im being honest here he kind of half killed me that day. he more or less admited that i shoould get back together with him as i would not do any better. But i will tell you one thing. i could never ever settle for 2nd best or even go back into my past and well settle for that. Coz i know at the end of the day i know that i have good support network of friends and family who would like to see me happy. But i think my own mid is made up in what im going to do next.  

I think in having this alone time it has really made me think in what i want and what i need. Now i know what i want and what i need and i certainly dont mind waiting at all.  its just a matter of waiting for the right time and place and being with the right person.

changes within thyself yet again

Yikes. Covers herself in her hoody and hides away. I have just realised that i havent did a piece in a shocking amount of time. Jeeze i will say that well i have had ahem a bit of atuff on but sadly i have been hitting the wall when it comes to the blogging front. I have been chopping and changing ideas in my head so many times over that i have decided that i should really write a new piece and today will be this day to write sumthing.

So what news do i have since i last wrote sumthing. Hmm well i have been going to a few gigs have been going thru recent lifestyle changes and also sadlyh i have been slammed down on so hard like a fat ckid goes after chocolate cake. So sadly alas im not getting much work as i want to be. BUt this has been a good thing for me. I mean im in a market and a world of shallow god foresaken idiots that are called well therapists. Now in no means am i putting any1 down here. BUt sum people especaiily in this town really need to calm the f^^k down and chill the f**k out. I would like to say im making a bomb being a therapist but sadly im just about litterly breaking even. Which is sum what annoying and at times really fucking infurating as well. I mean as a therapist i have been adverting myself and well placing myself and even doing the grand thing of strutting myself like a prize animal at a show. But alas i get no way.

You see i feel like one of those strays in the pound that no one wants. (i know its a cruel comparson and i really hate using it) but its so true. Every time the cell rings i put on my happy voice i sell my soul and than sum and even say look i will even give you a discount. But alas they wont take me on. Now what really infurated me more of late was the following. I asked a friend ohh can i put posters up in your shop as i well need to pay the bills. Needless to say they said yes. Now a week later the poster went missing and than another girls poster showed up. NOw i kind of said what the hell im barely living as it is and also i need the business and also im more qualifcated. The answer to which i got infurated me more. well thingy is the friend of the family and shes starting out. Which made me quite angry and made me think seriously why in the name of god do i need you in my life so with that i just left it at that and walked away with my pride in tact.

Now when i talk about change again well who knows what will happen. Sadly i did make changes to go and travel and well do other things but sadly the ressession is sumwhat killing my dreams. Now please try and not mock me and say it will all be ok but seriously im a bit screwed. I try to smile and say yeah life is good but seriously its not all that good. But i will thank the budda that i have a roof over my head supporting friends and family and a lovely collie named shep to fall back on.

 

 

Before you read my blog I really think you should take 2 mins out to check out dressed as a girl but it carry’s a strong message in how use girls are not treated all that fairly for when it comes to our every day lives. You can than see that im working with a theme here for today’s piece.

So as you may or may not know its international woman’s day. So today is the day for the lovely species that is the all singing all dancing female sex. I mean I have to its pretty damn awesome being a woman. I mean we can do pretty damn amazing things. I mean we can well have friendships that can last from childhood that go well into adulthood. We can take in new friends and welcome them into our fold like their were our long lost buddies. We can also meet potential mates and than maybe just maybe marry the guy or girl. More importantly we can have as many children as we want. We can also have the ability to keep a house clean keep every one satisfied that may live in the household. But do know what I find pretty damn amazing for when it comes to my ladies. Well the ability to cope with any given task that is thrown to us. I mean I have seen and done it all when it comes to all things life wise and I have to say well we are pretty damn awesome.

But I have to say that while I simply gush over the fact that women are awesome sometimes were are the unsung heroes for when it comes to every day life. Many women that I know do have a lot of stuff to do. I mean running a house looking after children and going back to college is not an easy task but I know a few women who have done this and I have to say that I am simply in awe of how they do it. I know a really good friend of mine who is not only doing a physiology course but also is a full time mum to her little boy and is also working part time when I hear things like this im just simply lost for words. But I have to say not every1 life is dealt a good hand. I do remember a few years back I worked in a all female environment and I have to say this and I think sum people will not like me saying this at all. But some girls can be ruthless and in some cases mean as hell. I mean when I worked for this certain company it was hard at times to say the least but thankfully I raised above it and made it a personal mission not to partake in silly or stupid childish games. But I think now that I look back it actually made me stronger and it has also made me the person that I am today.

But if I’m really being honest here I must prefer working in a male dominated environment. I mean like I was a bit of a tom boy growing up and when I hit my late teens early 20s I started to work in the bar trade. Now working in the bar trade is such a blast I mean the fun I use to have with working with my guys was such a laugh. I would also roll with my boys for when it came to working in the bar but we always made the time to have a laugh after we finished work. But apart from working in the bar trade with a large group if males. I have worked in different areas and I have to say I know that now that I can have a laugh and a joke with my guys. But I think at the end of the day when it comes to both sexes I think that I have the up most respect hmm for both sexes if im being honest. I think if anything men and women have equal talents for when it comes to not only how we work rest and play but also we do know how to sort out our every day challenges that the world might throw at us. I mean if anything im being honest here I don’t know how to change a tire on a car nor do I know how to fit in a smoke alarm or even pro gramme my dvd player so yeah im not ashamed to admit it I just sometimes well call the well stronger sex when it comes to things like that.

But I have to say if anything what does kind of shock me really is the way that some rules are never ever going to change for use girls at all. I mean being in the job that I do I dont get paid much but as far as I know a man will get paid more so than me. I also know that if I do decide to well have a child and raise a child alone that I could have the odds stacked hugely against me in not being trated fairly and there is many many other issues I could bring up but im choosing not to and also I really dont have all day in raising up such subjects. I mean at the end of the day I do know a few things mainloy about myself. Im truly talented and mutli skilled. I can literally do 5 tasks altogether at the same time. ( I have experience in doing this from my waitress days). I am also good at science and problem Solving. Again this is a really good skill to have under the belt for every day life. I can also be rational patient compassionate non judgmental and very very kind. I can also well be there for my ladies and gents in times of not only having a ball on nights out. But I also make sure to be there for both my boy friend’s and girlfriends in times of sadness and woe. So if anything in by admitting to this am I a good person to have in your life. Well I like to think that I am. I also wanna dedicate this piece to all my ladies you know who you all are you I just simply love and adore each and every one of you. You girls rock and thanks for being there for not only thru the rib roaring side splitting good times but its also good to say that many of you were there for me thru my own times of sadness loss and long slow agonizing crying hours spend in woe.

Change for the better yeah i think it is

So over the last while. I have spend years working my butt off in doing various course and subjects that i could use in my everyday life. Now the last course that i recently done was the holistic health studies course. When i started to do this course i was at a cross roads and i deicded to do sumthing worthy of my talents. Now that i have spend the best part of a few years on the course i have just realised sumthing about myself. NOt only am i smart and brainy and have talents to beat the band. I just realised that i have spend any time or even took time out for that matter. I think of anything i have been working like a dog on case studies assignments deadlines exams both practical and in a class room situation but now that i think about it. Im actaully feeling massively burned out.

I mean i didnt feel this way when i was doing the work this was manily because of the fact that i was on the student diet pf pot noodles red bull coffee and well the odd boozing session. But when i look back at it now. What was it all worth? i mean dont get me wrong im grateful for the work that i did and the certs that i got from the college was an added bonus but now i feel sort of out of the loop. I mean do my best to well make a few bob with my new skills but sumtimes you will get the odd fucker who will say ohh massage does not work. Oh i dont want smelly oils put on me when it comes to getting massaged. But you see this is why im sort of grateful that i went to college and graturated and well did all the work that needed to get done for the course. BUt now that i think about it. Im very grateful for the expereince that the stupid college gave me. Granted be it may it was a silly place that i went to but i feel as though i put in enough work to set me up for life.

Now i have to admit that i am taking a break mainly because of the fact that i have been working hard but also i think im going to be slefish here and decide on what i want to do. I think i have made up my mind of travelling abroad and yes im on the case as we speak of sorting iout my plans and making sure that everything falls into place for when the plans do go thru. But i also think that i have had to make massive changes in my own lofe in order to take up the life of a student. I mean when i was doing my holistic health studies i diodnt even have a bean to myself and i could not even go out. So while the other people that i went to college were out having a life i was up till silly hours

Tattoos and issues.

Im having a serious addiction to pop punk of late and i think its a good representation of who i am now and always will be  apop punk princess who does not follow lifes rules.

Right this is yet another personal blog piece of mind. I have been working on it on and off for the last while but i think with the day being in it i think that maybe it finally needs to get done.

Right as you may know i like many things. I like seeing live music i like going out and i also like bringing la pooch down to the beach for a run along the shore. But what i have to say i really like is tattoos. I for 1 love getting inked. I have 5 pieces of beautiful tattoo work on my body and yet i crave for more. I would sometimes spend hours drawing up designs and thinking about what would look good and not good on my body. I think for me getting inked is a part of who i am and no i will not change that for anyone at all. The pieces that i have on my body represent the time that i went thru in my life whether it be good or bad. I also have got family members done on my body & for me this represents who i am. But i think what has annoyed me of late is when certain haters go on about getting such nasty tats.

But i think for me i have never encountered the nasty or vicious side of people when it comes to me and my tats. I have well heard a few comments like oh yeah i dont really like that tat on your arm and oh yeah why would you get that piece out there for. I also run with the argument that its my body one and 2 shut the f&ck you dont know me or you dont know who i am. But i do remember a few years back i was at a do with a face from my past. Now i got dressed up and wore make up and well i decided to hit the town. So when i got to the venue i was greeted by friends and they kept sayng how nice i was and how my dress my pretty. This was great until i had an off the cuff comment by an ex friend of mine. Well you do look nice but dont take this wrong way but whats with your tats i dont like them and also girsl should not wear tats. When i heard this i was very surprised to say the least. My first reaction was ok your judging me over what i look like 1 and 2 who dided and gave you the right to judge me asshole. Now from personal expereince i could not be with sum one if they judged me over my tats. BUt i think what shocked me more was when my friend at the time didnt even back me up. Now needless to say i dont speak to thsi person anymore. But seriously why do people always feel the need to judge others on what they look like. Seriously some people can be such tools and i really have no time for them.

I think of anything i would be more for the heavily tattoed guy who rides a motor cycle and has tunnels in his ears than be with mr play it safe and boring in a suit. i think if anything people who make such comments on your appearnce should not be bothered to even think about. I mean i was out ages back and i was told that i am so pretty and that my tattoos give me more of a rock star look about myself. I think the day of people judging me over my appearnce is long past gone. I mean being the job that i am in being a massage and reflexologist there has been a few intersting coversations brought up over my tats. I have even had slighty older clients who have wanted to get inked. But i think if anything i for one love getting inked and well if i get more tats that is my business and no one elses and also why should i give a damn in whether people judge me over my tats.

I think at the end of the day people who feel the need to judge others over their appearances regardless of who they are or what they moght be might have a serious under lining condition that might affect their own views on how they see their own lives and this is why they might feel the need to judge others. I think if anything if and when i do get inked me it will be my choice and no one elses.